Many people believe that, throughout most of the day, it is them that is doing the thinking in their minds and the feeling in their bodies. I would like to now tell you that this is not true. Most of the day the thinking in your mind is done by an autopilot program that you created when you were younger.
When we are children starting to talk and think in words, we start conditioning our minds to think in certain patterns. We start conditioning our bodies to respond in certain ways to emotionally charged situations. We subconsciously mimic the behaviors we see. Then, as we get older and emotionally charged situations arise, our mental autopilots start responding, talking and acting, before our presence and creative-will ever get the chance to make a conscious decision about what to say or do.
It’s like driving a car. When you just begin to learn how, you pay attention to everything. Did you fasten the seat belt? Did you remove the clutch? Are your mirrors well adjusted? However, the better you get at driving a car the less thought you put into it. You start driving automatically, while thinking about other things, like what you are going to make for dinner.
The implications for such an unconscious way of being can be truly menacing if you consider the possibility that your universe is a mental matrix that attracts to you more of what you think and feel, more of what you do and what you try to obscure about yourself.
In order to change your reality you will need to learn mindfulness and to reprogram yourself. Set aside ten to twenty minutes every day. Sit down in a peaceful place. Close your eyes and focus on your breathing.
Observe whether the breathing is deep or shallow, through both nostrils or through the mouth. Do you feel the air entering your body through both the left and right side of your chest or do you favor one side? Examine your body for any tension starting at your toes, and moving upwards towards your legs, hips, torso, neck, arms and head. Then get comfortable, breathe deeply and observe your thoughts.
Be patient. When a thought arises in your mind do not judge it. Try to perceive it as an outside sound. Repeat the thought slowly in your mind. Then repeat it again, now even slower. Do this with every thought that you notice.
This will help unload some of the emotional charge that often comes with compulsive thinking by distancing you from the words running through your mind.
It is okay if you drift off or lose concentration. If you notice this happening, simply draw your attention back into your body and continue the exercise.
At the end of the meditation slowly count from one to ten, picturing every number in front of yourself as you think it. Imagine every number changing colors as you see it in front of yourself. Try not to think at all as you do this. Only move on from imagining one number to imagining the next, when unrelated thoughts start to arise in your mind.
End your meditation by breathing in deeply and by acknowledging that you are the divine observer in this moment.
With time your mindfulness practice will come easier to you and you will notice yourself becoming less reactive and more conscientious. This is a necessary step for anyone who wants to stop using themselves to only obtain outside objectives and wants to start enjoying their lives and the awareness that flows through their bodies.
No man can be happy if he is owned by his thoughts and feelings. Such a man is unable to attain happiness because he is not free.