Projection and the Ego
“God himself is incomplete without you”Helen Schucman
“You’re not in the universe. You are the universe”Eckhart Tolle
You are the universe coming to know itself. You are divine presence in this moment. You are creative will. You are love. Nothing cannot be made into something. Hence you were never nothing. You were never separated from the state of being. You simply changed forms.
You are inseparable from everything that surrounds you, yet perceiving your individuality in order to add richness to the fabric of life. Every experience you have will be incorporated into the experience of humanity forever. Helping humanity evolve and understand itself.
Somewhere along the way you got disconnected from your own grandeur, from the divinity in your heart. You started to feel small, insignificant and afraid. You started identifying yourself with your ego, with the mask that you wear.
Unlike you, your ego was created the moment you were born. Unlike you, your ego is going to die. Unlike you, your ego can only live in the past for it judges itself entirely by its previous experience, accomplishments and sense of guilt.
Yet this powerless insignificant mask so often succeeds in convincing you that you are one and the same. That in order to be happy, you need to please your egoistic mind. That in order to be happy you need to be singled out for being better than everyone else, when in fact being singled out is just another phrase that describes being alone.
Your ego would not manage to entice you with its promises if you saw the unhappiness that it created in you. If you realised that without this ego you are free of all guilt, free of all fear and present in the moment. So the ego devised an ingenious survival strategy in order to maintain its hold on you.
Instead of making your misconceptions and fears apparent to you so that you may overcome them easily, the ego projected them onto other people and situations. This way it convinced you that there is no inner conflict inside your mind. That it, your ego, is offering you a way to happiness and peace and that it is the world that is getting in the way. That it is other people who are turning you into a victim.
You may find yourself in a profession that does not bring you joy or flow. Yet you insist on continuing your work in this field because you are unwilling to give up all the effort that you have put in in order to get there and all the prestige and money that you have earned. In the meantime the environment at work becomes more hostile and starts taking a toll on your health.
What your ego self will hide from you is that you are subconsciously creating this intolerable situation in order to get yourself to make a change.
You may find yourself in a relationship where you are profoundly unhappy. Yet should your partner decide to break the union, your ego will resist, bargain and throw itself into despair. It will tell you that your partner is the guilty party, that they did not value you and everything that you have done for them. Your ego will not want you to acknowledge the part of you that will be healed by this separation.
You may be a person who engages in very destructive inner dialogue. You tend to blame yourself, to feel guilty and unworthy. After sufficient time elapses, a person is going to come into your life that will be the manifestation of these thoughts. They will blame you for everything, accuse you of things that you never did or had no control over and make you feel worthless. Yet you do not recognise this amplified reflection of your own thought system and attack the person that is simply acting as a mirror in order to help you heal and see the injustice of your own accusations.
If you are a person who struggles with taking responsibility, your ego may attempt to heal your own fears by attacking them in others. For example, if you are afraid of showing your feelings, you will dislike and attack those who do. Behind this attack by the ego mind is your inner child asking for love and for the ability to express themselves freely. If you do not make time to nurture yourself, you may attack those who do. Your ego will tell you that they are selfish and spoiled. But behind this attack is yet another plea for love.
You may be a person who from an early age has been taught that love is conditional and that unless others value you, you are worthless. Because you are perceiving the world from the level of the ego, you are unable to see the flaw in your belief system. So you manifest it. You allow yourself to base your self-worth on the love you receive from others. However by seeking from without you are acknowledging the lack within, and this lack of self-worth is what your manifestation will turn into. Either these people who support you will leave or they will stop valuing you. This way you will end up looking at your own projection of your NEED for approval. You will be amplifying your LACK.
This battle between the egos desire to project your flaws onto others and the world around you, and the reality of the innocence and divinity of your being will go on until you are fully healed. The ego cannot win. It is only a matter of time before it loses and you mature into your power.
Once you find your balance, then you will be trusted to experiment with creativity and creation more openly. The shorter manifestation time between your thoughts and reality will then stop being so dangerous to you, because you will no longer be projecting fear and separation. You will be projecting love, beauty and joy. You will be creating and playing without getting absorbed by your creation and forgetting what you are.
After all like it says in A Course in Miracles:
“You who cannot control yourself should hardly aspire to control the universe.”